When life gives you something, it takes away something else. And someone like me barely can accept this law. Someone like me can barely accept any laws. I've always been a silent warrior, who won't ask for it straight, but will demand it in my own hundred-ways.
Now that I have what I wanted, it seems just... incomplete. I feel that what I care and love the most is too geographically scattered.
July 09, 2009
July 07, 2009
Right On Time
What a good song without you. ... adica... prietene, fereste-te de femeia pe care ai ignorat-o.
Never mind, sa fie pentru toata lumea "care sufereste" OAR and Shattered.
Never mind, sa fie pentru toata lumea "care sufereste" OAR and Shattered.
July 06, 2009
Not Found
1: 02 AM Tangled up in sheets. Again I cannot sleep.
2:32 AM Roaming in my room with a heavy head, watching the streets and the full moon from a dusty balcony.
Again looking for something that isn't there. One more SWOT analysis and I can postpone my thoughts for later.
Ah, ah, ah ... that serenity! Give me a pick up, a paper cup coffee and a still city in the morning.
Travis Closer
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2:32 AM Roaming in my room with a heavy head, watching the streets and the full moon from a dusty balcony.
Again looking for something that isn't there. One more SWOT analysis and I can postpone my thoughts for later.
Ah, ah, ah ... that serenity! Give me a pick up, a paper cup coffee and a still city in the morning.
Travis Closer
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Cuvinte
Uneori cuvintele sunt mai mari ca noi, atat de mari incat nu poti sa le faci nimic. Nici macar nimic. Daca vrei - accepta-le, dar nu le crede. Totul e o interpretare. Totul e o randuiala a mintii. Cuvintele te cuprind sau te sufoca, iti ridica sufletul la cer sau ti-l impietresc in gheata.
In noaptea aceasta cateva zeci de mii de cuvinte au fost prea putine si totusi, prea multe. In noaptea aceasta cateva zeci de mii de cuvinte au distrus 3 ani... de tot.
In noaptea aceasta cateva zeci de mii de cuvinte au fost prea putine si totusi, prea multe. In noaptea aceasta cateva zeci de mii de cuvinte au distrus 3 ani... de tot.
July 05, 2009
Ignorance Effect ++
Some people want to be slapped badly to get a point or two or five. One of those people is me. When all those signs lead me to one thing, then what on earth is there telling me otherwise?
If the end is ahead, then I want to go back...
"Pluteste drept inainte si daca pamantul pe care il cauti nu exista inca, fii sigur ca Dumnezeu il va crea intr-adins pentru a-ti rasplati indrazneala."
Marin Preda
Marin Preda
If the end is ahead, then I want to go back...
July 02, 2009
June 30, 2009
La Multi Ani, mamico!
Every time I leave Moldova taken by the iron bird up, up to that simulation of heaven, I secretly spread few drops of my heart on the white blanket of clouds … as a present for my mom.
On the top of the earth, grasping revelations of how delicate life is and how insanely audacious her child is, I keep diving into the white ocean of fragility, trusting that angels will carry her hopes and prayers…
And for her, I beg the Minute to be longer...
La Multi Ani, mamico!
Today Doga’s music is made of pieces of celestial symphonies and my mom’s life of 46 years, full of the wisdom of a daughter, woman, wife and mother.
June 29, 2009
AHA moment
I realized why and why not - because I cannot really love anybody without whom I almost never laugh.
PS. I have two weeks for a Present. What's next will know later.
PS. I have two weeks for a Present. What's next will know later.
June 24, 2009
Counting Down
National Strategic Conference is one day ahead. Sessions to prepare, speeches to deliver and time to enjoy... My AIESEC journey comes to an end. I'm so going to miss all of this... 2 weeks left till the Grand Final.
June 21, 2009
In Belong to The Lucky Ones
It's good to be back in Bahrain. When I was in Moldova, I had the feeling that I will never see again Manama by night from the Hidd bridge (view which will ALWAYS bring back good memories). It has that je ne sais quoi when driving on my way back home after a looong tiring day at the office. I also realized that I have the most awesomistic team, which I m going to miss a lot...
The heat is taking over the island and it ads up to the difficult times of mine, but I'm grateful for how things turn out, for some weird reason. I feel OK inside and I still have faith and strength to believe. Somehow I'm not shocked. I still believe I belong to the lucky ones.
"If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day."
E.B. White
The heat is taking over the island and it ads up to the difficult times of mine, but I'm grateful for how things turn out, for some weird reason. I feel OK inside and I still have faith and strength to believe. Somehow I'm not shocked. I still believe I belong to the lucky ones.
"If the world were merely seductive, that would be easy. If it were merely challenging, that would be no problem. But I arise in the morning torn between a desire to improve the world and a desire to enjoy the world. This makes it hard to plan the day."
E.B. White
June 19, 2009
June 18, 2009
My Plan is No Plan
I convinced myself once again that life has to be faced without a plan and deadlines. Just go out there and live it. Wipe your hands, shake the shit off... and whatever happens - happens. [There is no way, but... the end.. anyway].
...and for God's sake - do not recite poetry to one who is not a poet.
U2 - If God will send his angels
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...and for God's sake - do not recite poetry to one who is not a poet.
U2 - If God will send his angels
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June 17, 2009
June 16, 2009
June 07, 2009
One Year Lesson
"Listen to the mustn'ts, child. Listen to the don'ts. Listen to the shouldn'ts, the impossibles, the won'ts. Listen to the never haves, then listen close to me... Anything can happen, child. Anything can be."
Shel Silverstein
Shel Silverstein
BIA without a Blanket
"There comes a time in life, when you have to let go of all the pointless drama and the people who create it and surround yourself with people who make you laugh."
That's why for lack of focus I have Friends bloopers, Gheorghi Urschi and a youtube account. (a WTF technique!) For bitter truths I have a crew (somehow by default) who waits for me on the other side of the counter. Dutifully mine.
- I'm immature and impatient. It didnt work.
- Be...
- Eeei Because.. Because the number 11 isn't pronounced onety one.
That's why for lack of focus I have Friends bloopers, Gheorghi Urschi and a youtube account. (a WTF technique!) For bitter truths I have a crew (somehow by default) who waits for me on the other side of the counter. Dutifully mine.
- I'm immature and impatient. It didnt work.
- Be...
- Eeei Because.. Because the number 11 isn't pronounced onety one.
June 01, 2009
Here Comes the Sun
The wall I hang my thoughts on. The blanket I wrap my restlessness in. The clock I measure my strength with. Let’s say it’s going to work. 1st of June.
Here comes the sun - Beatles
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Here comes the sun - Beatles
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May 30, 2009
Reality I Waste My Time On
Breeze and water drops mingling in my hair - Amuaj Islands trip by boat -Watching Flemings on the shore - Momente de cucoana si de spa la Ritz - Driving in Juffair in the middle of the night - Spring of Cultures festival with friends - Spanish music at the Arad Fort - 20 mins cu fite la Televizor - Collide with Nada - Infinity with Rehman - Hours of flights over deserts and waters - Just Like Heaven, The Cure on the top of the roof - Saggesse vs Riady (Arab world cup basketball finals)- Watermelon for breakfast at 6 AM - Big Bang Orchestra and patriotic goose bumps - Cedars and mountains car trip - IRINA - Esperanza Fernandez flamenco live concert - Igor Cobileanski (Moldovan movie director) - Bought 2 books by D.Goleman, one by B.Russell and one by C.Dickens - Red 7 more - Made Letzu shade a tear...
Overlook the fact that I got no VISA yet, that I have no job secured after AIESEC, that I lost my iPod, that I got into a car accident, that I rent a house I don't live in and… that the music is no good without you.
This too will pass.
Overlook the fact that I got no VISA yet, that I have no job secured after AIESEC, that I lost my iPod, that I got into a car accident, that I rent a house I don't live in and… that the music is no good without you.
This too will pass.
May 29, 2009
It's not Like Flipping Coins
One month. One month of hungry expectations, of Want’s and Must’s, of Let’s Make it Happen. Today I got an e-mail… sort of “nu grai mult sh-ai sa canti.”
Managing a team that should deliver 2 events, dealing with hundreds of students and top companies, a strategic conference ahead…
And that’s when I realize once again how fragile AIESEC is. For a global organization with over 60 years of experience, with over 36,000 members and high caliber companies as partners, any outsiders will tend to believe that we’re smart enough to take care of our members.
Expansion countries are fragile and I can tell from my two years of experience. You never know who is going to take care of u. The love supply from members, the inner drive and personal ambitions can easily fade during such moments. Sometimes it’s just not enough.
How many times did we, actually, brought to the table during our global summits the VISA issue for our internationals MCs? With the same strength we manage to bring under one roof young people of 100 nationalities in Turkey, Brazil or Malaysia, we should be able to simple do-something for ensuring BASIC safety for our volunteers that working abroad.
I’m responsible for my choices and I was mentally prepared to take it all, with… whatever. But, as an organization, we’re on our half way through - there are almost 90 more countries to go. Too many stories. Isn’t the right time to reflect, conclude and improve?
*AIESEC is the international youth leadership development organization giving young people opportunities to develop their professional skills by running the management functions of the organization. (www.aiesec.org)
... and I say this because...
Since 4 years, I’m awarding myself with opportunities thus, at the age of 24, I've been to more than 10 countries, visited 4 continents, making friends all over the world - building a huge network of people that have similar passions, interests and people that want to make difference in their own life and the lives of others.
For the past two years, AIESEC has given me the chance to work in a multicultural team managing one of the most prominent youth organizations. Last year I have been working in Central Asia, opening a new AIESEC chapter in Kyrgyzstan. On a daily basis, my work in a diverse environment required strong work ethics and ability to promptly adapt to various cultural differences and working styles.
In my current role, as a president of AIESEC in Bahrain, I practice cooperation with diverse portfolio of companies; I meet CEOs and lead 7 generations of members, who keep challenging and inspiring me for 9 months now. Nevertheless, my experience is also tied to being a team player and making the most of professional relationships. In all these lessons, I'm the apprentice. Yet, according to my job description, I'm supposed to be the master.
There is no other experience which could guarantee so much learning and entrepreneurial attitude at the age of 24.
One month left... for the grand finale, as my predecessor used to call it, and i'm not in the country. What else is there to say?...
Managing a team that should deliver 2 events, dealing with hundreds of students and top companies, a strategic conference ahead…
And that’s when I realize once again how fragile AIESEC is. For a global organization with over 60 years of experience, with over 36,000 members and high caliber companies as partners, any outsiders will tend to believe that we’re smart enough to take care of our members.
Expansion countries are fragile and I can tell from my two years of experience. You never know who is going to take care of u. The love supply from members, the inner drive and personal ambitions can easily fade during such moments. Sometimes it’s just not enough.
How many times did we, actually, brought to the table during our global summits the VISA issue for our internationals MCs? With the same strength we manage to bring under one roof young people of 100 nationalities in Turkey, Brazil or Malaysia, we should be able to simple do-something for ensuring BASIC safety for our volunteers that working abroad.
I’m responsible for my choices and I was mentally prepared to take it all, with… whatever. But, as an organization, we’re on our half way through - there are almost 90 more countries to go. Too many stories. Isn’t the right time to reflect, conclude and improve?
*AIESEC is the international youth leadership development organization giving young people opportunities to develop their professional skills by running the management functions of the organization. (www.aiesec.org)
... and I say this because...
Since 4 years, I’m awarding myself with opportunities thus, at the age of 24, I've been to more than 10 countries, visited 4 continents, making friends all over the world - building a huge network of people that have similar passions, interests and people that want to make difference in their own life and the lives of others.
For the past two years, AIESEC has given me the chance to work in a multicultural team managing one of the most prominent youth organizations. Last year I have been working in Central Asia, opening a new AIESEC chapter in Kyrgyzstan. On a daily basis, my work in a diverse environment required strong work ethics and ability to promptly adapt to various cultural differences and working styles.
In my current role, as a president of AIESEC in Bahrain, I practice cooperation with diverse portfolio of companies; I meet CEOs and lead 7 generations of members, who keep challenging and inspiring me for 9 months now. Nevertheless, my experience is also tied to being a team player and making the most of professional relationships. In all these lessons, I'm the apprentice. Yet, according to my job description, I'm supposed to be the master.
There is no other experience which could guarantee so much learning and entrepreneurial attitude at the age of 24.
One month left... for the grand finale, as my predecessor used to call it, and i'm not in the country. What else is there to say?...
May 28, 2009
Libraries, Afternoons and Doga
I made a new habit of spending my afternoons in Assabil, the minuscule library, 5 minutes walk from the place I stay. The street that takes me there, is churned with antics stores, friendly old merchants welcoming you to their shops and vehicle of all sort squeezing between other vehicles, already parked on the sides of the road.
The match-box effect amplifies my mental exhaustion, which Beirut was giving me from the very first visit - it drains me to the core, and it gets me irascible when my ears fill up with outrageous honking cars… Oh my!They got style here.
I loved Assabil from the first moment. Even though it guards the cemetery, it feels very friendly. It kept bearing with me for 2 weeks now. Surrounded by shelves full with books, on a comfy green armchair, wrapped by a complete silence, I get to spend long afternoons into a fine trance work atmosphere. And it’s fine! I’ve been doing fine: from dejection till pumped hopes.
[A note to self - I’m getting old. I remember my grand ma’ asking for silence.]
When I want to take a break, I shift to books. Always had the feeling that reading a good book is like borrowing a superior brain. I Bought 4 more this week. Books.
For stress-free afternoons, funky bookstores are good too – but, according to my definition, it’s too much commerce lately – I don't know why it reminds me of all those top-notch people met in a networking event: they all look the same and say the same things.
Without worrying much about climate changing, I choose libraries, afternoons and Doga. Even when times are hard.
EUGEN DOGA - Ciocarlia
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The match-box effect amplifies my mental exhaustion, which Beirut was giving me from the very first visit - it drains me to the core, and it gets me irascible when my ears fill up with outrageous honking cars… Oh my!They got style here.
I loved Assabil from the first moment. Even though it guards the cemetery, it feels very friendly. It kept bearing with me for 2 weeks now. Surrounded by shelves full with books, on a comfy green armchair, wrapped by a complete silence, I get to spend long afternoons into a fine trance work atmosphere. And it’s fine! I’ve been doing fine: from dejection till pumped hopes.
[A note to self - I’m getting old. I remember my grand ma’ asking for silence.]
When I want to take a break, I shift to books. Always had the feeling that reading a good book is like borrowing a superior brain. I Bought 4 more this week. Books.
For stress-free afternoons, funky bookstores are good too – but, according to my definition, it’s too much commerce lately – I don't know why it reminds me of all those top-notch people met in a networking event: they all look the same and say the same things.
Without worrying much about climate changing, I choose libraries, afternoons and Doga. Even when times are hard.
EUGEN DOGA - Ciocarlia
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